those 85 hours...

i closed the door behind me and came inside...left my sandals near the front door and took the steps down to the hall. it was 5pm and my buddy/roommate was leaving for good. she has plans to settle in bangalore..ehh??? alright....i went inside my room and was feeling nauseatic. so lay flat on bed and my mind was smothered with many thoughts.....it was weekend..and i was in my closed room sitting silently..huh..it never happened...it was saturday when i used to scream on my editor to finish the programme...it wasnot happening...it was the evening of the most waited day of the week...when me and my roomies always hangout..it wasn't happening...it was different....i was sitting and staring at the roof...thinking of nothing ..yet i knew my mind had some zillion thoughts screwing it up...it was almost 7pm and time to say good bye to my roomy...tears were scrolling down...and after dramatic farewell..she left and i was inside my room again..all alone...then i realised...my friends??-i am not in touch with them...my work??- i left my job and i am jobless!!! my roomies??they are no more with me..i wanted to cry but i didnot..i wanted to go out..but i didnot...i wanted to watch movie..but i couldnot..i did nothing...and today morning i realised i have spent almost 85hours inside a room...i dint see the daylight..i dint step outside the door...i dint meet people...i havenot socialised...huh...i certainly broke the record of my life...i dont know how i spent 3.5 days inside a house..may be read books..talked to friends on phone and online and slept...these few hours of my life are surely memorable and i believe..everyone experiences such hours once in life time...did you??